My dearest heart
Spoke to me
Painful words
The untruth of it all filling his head.
No words could I speak
The silence killing us both or maybe me
I want you so…..now
I wanted you then
I scream and scream inside my head.
But he can’t feel it.
I feel that he can’t.
I keep the silence between us.
What words could take all that away?
For a brief moment
He comes into view
I catch the voice of the person I once knew.
I hear all that he is…..
My heart misses…..
Oh, how I miss……
His kiss
His hands
His feet
The smile in his voice
His presence
The spring in his step
His cuddles
The rainwater that falls from his face at night
His smell
His beautiful legs
His style
His grace
His music
His words only for me
His presence
His laugh
His writing
His excitement
His cheer
I miss loving him and he loving me
Oh, to walk free.
To love him
Truly, love him
His hand in mine
Surrendering.
